The Merging of Two Worlds

This weekend I came back from college for the first time. It was nice to be home, but it was peculiar.

In Chicago, I have my roots. I have my family, my home, my church, my theatre, two schools, grammar school friends, high school friends, theatre friends...

In St. Louis I have my second home, my dorm, the family of friends that I have formed on my own, my school, communication devices such as my computer and cell phone to keep in touch with my family and friends in Chicago...

In Chicago I have my mom, my dad, Tom, Chris, Andrea, Amy, Veronica, Jonathan, Amanda, Mrs. Tardi, Jeremy, Mrs. Meade, Mrs. McGovern, Clare, Natalia, Alexis, John, Kate, Uncle Marty, Aunt Karen, Grandpa, Ms. Schneider, Katie, Genevieve... and so many more.

In St. Louis I have Hannah, Victoria, Natalie, Kelsey, Kenneth, Clare, Jared, RJ, Molls, Jessica, Samiksha, Shim, Matt... and I am sure there are more that I am not thinking of right now.

In Chicago I have a beautiful room that I designed myself.

In St. Louis I have a little white walled room that I share with two other people.

In Chicago I have privacy, the most beautiful town and city in the world, and I have music.

In St. Louis I have independence, a recreation center, and lots of free activities.

It's weird to realize what and who you miss. I miss my bed in Chicago, but I miss RJ walking, excuse me, falling, down the hallways singing at random hours. I miss study sessions at school, and I miss vegging out at home. I miss living in a house. I miss the people I spend ungodly hours of the day with at choir and harlequins rehearsal. I miss music. I saw Ben Folds in St. Louis, though. I miss my comforter from home. I miss Noly Poly and my Harry Potter blanket that I left at school. I miss feeling completely safe like I did when I was little. I miss the fall colors of Riverside. I miss my mom and my dad and all my friends here. I also miss all my friends in St. Louis. It's so weird... it's so weird.

It's so strange because I love them both and I wish that I could bring them both together to make an even more amazing life than the one I have now, but if I were miraculously able to bring them together then I would somehow ruin the beauty of the individual, separate sides of my life have.


This all being said, I have yet to introduce my lovely new friends, so here they are...

Hannah, Victoria, Natalie

These girls are making my college experience what it is supposed to be =]

I love you all and hopefully I will continue blogging again,

Hilary

College!

So I'm all moved into school. Last night we had square dancing on the top of the parking garage! It was awkward but fun! I'm glad that I already know some people here so that I can meet new friends through them. My camera is broken so I can't take a picture of my wonderful dorm space, but hopefully that problem will get solved soon. Rawrrrrrrrrrr
Love,
Hilary

whether insane or not...

"God doesnt give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to make you into the person that you were meant to be."

Rory: I'm having one of those moments right now.

Dean: What moments?

Rory: One of those moments that everything is so perfect and so wonderful that you almost feel sad because nothing can ever be this good again.

Do you ever get that feeling? The feeling that everything is so wonderful and the world is so beautiful and life is such a blessing and you feel like crying because you know it won't last forever and you wish that it could because you feel so happy? I often get that feeling, when I have a moment of grace with my friends or when I am driving home late at night, or when I am walking to church on Sunday mornings in the spring when the lilacs are blooming and the tulips have blossomed. It's a sad, but good feeling. At least there is something to miss when it goes away, right?

So Much Better

You have to take it for what it is, considering that it's Legally Blonde the Musical, but I love this song.

On this lovely day...

"Aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know it so it goes flying anyway."

-Mary Kay Ash

Reasons to be Happy

• I know where I'm going to college
• I found my beautiful prom dress
• Audrey Hepburn is marvelous in Breakfast at Tiffany's
• Breakfast at Tiffany's is a wonderful novella
• 20 days of school left
• my science project outline is not due till the end of the week
• Brunch with Mom, Tom, Grandpa, Aunt Karen, Uncle Steve, Sandra, and Sister Marge was lovely today
• my room is clean
• pandora is an awesome website
• I'm starting running again tomorrow
• I get to see Amy tomorrow!
• In 20 days there are some people that I will never have to see again
• my blog is beautiful
• my room is clean
• I'm getting along with my family
• I will be back in choir tomorrow, so I can sing and relieve whatever little stress I still have
• I'm going now so I can finish my religion homework by 8!